Here ya go, Christa

Okay, okay... just because Christa told me to... even though I have no clue what to Up. Date. Soon. about. haha.

So right now, I'm in Delaware... it's pretty cool. One of the days we're here, we're going to New York. I freakin love it there, I'm so stoked. And we're going to beaches, too. Well, if the weather is good enough. I love the beach. It's so beautiful, especially if you're lucky enough to catch a gorgeous sunset. It's amazing to me that some people can see that stuff, yet still not believe in God. I'm not saying it's the easiest thing to do, believing in Him, but seriously. Stuff like sunsets and sunrises (although I have never seen a sunrise because I'm sleeping) and storms and just nature in general... it just screams God. And it's really cool. Hmm... I think that was my deep-ish thought for the day. I'm on vacation, leave me alone. I don't have to be deep.

Today was my last full day of my junior year of high school. It was my last day in a uniform (school one, at least) until August. It was my last Trig class ever. It was my last Schneider class ever. It was my last open lunch of the year, which was made a million times better by hearing the N'Sync classic "Tearin' Up My Heart" on the way back to school. It was a lot of lasts...I am so stoked for summer, it's not even funny. But there are definitely some things I will miss about school, no matter how weird that sounds. Mostly the people, though. I really don't know if there's much of the actual school stuff that I'm gonna miss. But for now... I'm tired. I have a car wash in the morning and I need to read almost all of That Hideous Strength... Maybe I'll actually write something more extensive later.

Avril: Poser or not?

Eh, I really don't care what she is at the moment. I've just decided I absolutely love this song. (Haha, I'm posting a lot of songs... oh well. Get used to it.)

I looked away,
Then I look back at you.
You try to say
The things you can't undo.
If I had my way,
I'd never get over you.
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall...
Make it through it all...

And I don't wanna fall to pieces,
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it.
And I don't want a conversation,
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it,
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone,
You bring me back again,
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real,
I wanna know everything, everything...

I'm in love with you.
'Cause I'm in love you with.
I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you.

The guys of Relient K are practically my heroes...

I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific, and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am...
'cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line? Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Who I am hates who I've been
and who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been.

--"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been," Relient K

What a splendid thing love is!

Since I'm writing about love, I figured I should use pink! And pink is just a good color anyway. So last night, I was watching one of my favorite movies ever-- Just Married. For one, it has Ashton Kutcher in it. Two, it is freakin hilarious! And three, it's a romantic story that I love. Chick flicks generally get on my nerves. Oh, except for 13 Going On 30. Oh... and I fell for The Notebook, too... but anyways. Just Married has all that love stuff in it, plus the stupid humor that is my favorite! It's just an all around good movie. While I was watching it last night... it almost made me cry. I know, weird, right? But like... Tom and Sarah were soo perfect for each other. They really loved each other. Even after the honeymoon from hell, they still loved each other and wanted to make it work more than anything else. The end is soo sweet, when he cries and tells her whole family over the intercom that he loves her... aww it is the sweetest thing ever! I want that so bad. Yeah yeah yeah... I know, most people probably don't think of me as much of a girly girl, sappy, romance person... but I am a closet hopeless romantic. And hey, at least I can admit it! I want, almost more than anything, a guy like that. A guy who will be there for me when I need to cry... a guy who will tell me I'm gorgeous when I have a bloody nose and toilet paper under my lip... a guy who will make me laugh in whatever we do... a guy who can make (almost) any situation fun... a guy who I can look back and say, "I miss doing time in prison with you!"... oh man, my list could go on and on and on... but I'll stop there. Basically, I'm a hopeless romantic. And I just need a guy like Tom Lezak.

First post!

Sweet... my first post! I decided to conform and get one like half of the other people in my high school. I'm warning you now, though, it's not gonna be too thoughtful or anything, because I'm really not that type of person. Oh well. I'll do my best. I'll write something pensive later tonight, though. I've already got a plan! Okay... yeah. I'm done now.